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O'nite finally finish~yet,my job haven done...i still hav to search for the missing mutiple pluck~bull shit~~dono who is the 1 who borrow it from SAO,an took it bk home.if really cant find it bk then i dono wat to do liao...besides,jus realised tat they also borrow 4 scissors from SAO....nv return again...omg~~i lost my own scissors an blade too...pls pls pls...who took it bk home,pls return it to me...its a purple little scissors an a yellow blade.

btw,a lot of ppl congrat us for the success of o'nite...i think it is mostly the help of our commitees,especially program master...they really do v well an all the programs run so smoothly...but...i still think tat we should not be too happy or proud for the success...coz it may be jus getting lucky tat day...if we can do as well,or better for the next semester,we can only make sure an confirm tat it is our own hardwork to be so good...hope we can really do better for the coming semester an get all the lessons for those things or decision tat we made it wrong tis time...gambatte everyone!!

besides o'nite,hav to talk bout my own feeling...dono y,before an after o'nite it is still the same feeling...moody although nothing wrong happen around me...although i got a lot of new frens tis time....it still cant cover the weird feeling of me...i jus wanna find out wat the the  root of the feeling...is tat my studies??i don think so...im always happy go lucky in my studies...then wat is it??!!i really dono...seems like it was my dear baby who make me confuse...but not really him~~

many things to think about...for me only~coz ppl will think tat it is not a problem...it is jus nature...when im free,i started to think bout my own phylosophy...its the same bout cigerette,smokers,clubbing,liars those idiot things...but i still cant get an actual answer...i dono y im so sensitive bout all these tat is none of my business...an i keep cursing those ppl...seems stupid...ya~its sure stupid...but im sure tat is not me but those ppl...

btw,during the dance floor time on o'nite,i warned 3 person who smoke in the hall...i jus hate it~i cant bare the smell an no time for me to think bout wat they will do to me if i warn them an ask them to stop smoking...i jus went forward an tell them to stop...an they seems like 3 stupid asshole act as if they are the coolest shit in the world...especially 2 of the ugly witch...i jus think tat,no matter how hansum,how pretty or how talent u r,when u hold a cigerette in ur hand,u r jus bull shit...wat else for the 2 witch...jus cant compare them wit any things,even non living things in the world...they jus suckz~~

today the lecturer say sumting tat make me think bout my thought~~i forgot wat is it actually...but he make me think bout my phylosophy again...i jus start angry when i see sumting tat i think is wrong...maybe tis attitude is wrong...it is immature...ppl always say tat we hav to face the true world...we cant aspect everything to be holly...when u face the world,then u can be happy...maybe im the 1 who cant face the true...tats y i always not happy...but i rather to be not happy than to accept those idiot shit...

last few weeks i got a weird idea...bout cigerette of coz...when im thinking of those idiot shit things...maybe 1 day i will try to ask a smoker..."wat do u think an no about cigerette?" i wanna no wat they understand bout the little tube of shit...for me, a cigerette is jus a little paper wrapping some dry leaves...an those idiot moron will put it at their smelly stinky horrible mouth,burn it,an suck it....imagine,they r sucking the smoke from the burning dry leaves an paper...into their mouth,their lungs,their brain...they hav no brain cell to think anymore...they r jus like a vegetable...oh no!!not vegetable...even vegetable is smarter than those "living little creature"...i really look down on them...i dono y...

most of my frens no tat im going to major in economics...according to my lecturer who got bachelor an master in economics,they hav to pass up a research for their studies...an i think now i already got my research topic eventhough im jus in the 2nd year of degree...its jus like wat my 1st research assignment...its all bout cigerette an smokers...i think i wont feel better before i find the actual answer for these...

he is jus like a standing fans for me...turning side to side...when he turn to me,i feel great an happy eventhough im tired...when he turn to the other side,im jus nothing to him eventhough i try to get his attention...make me confuse...but i dono wat to say an how to say...anything i say will only make it worst...i've tried before....i had promise myself to be strong an independent...no more crying...although i did wat i promised,but i don really feel happy as all the things i do is not me...not myself...im not a person who is strong an independent...i like to cry...cry whenever i like to....even nothing make me sad,i can also cry...tat is y God giv me a pair of eye which can cry when im not clear for my path..not clear of where im walking to...

God givs me a brain which think about things tat ppl normally wont think about...He givs me eyes which cry for injustice an inhumanity...no matter wat ppl think of me or do to me...i will stand on my own right path...an do anything to prevent those evil to turn my path into darkness...i hate darkness an pollution...its 1 of the reason i hate clubbing an smokers...I will do anything to eliminate the idiot habit of human being... as i was told by God...To stand on my own path...do not giv up eventhough there is no 1 who stand on the side 2gether wit me...

-----When God bring u to it,He will bring u through it-----

Comments

[Keiichi Arakazu]

*sniff*

I hate smokers too. If you need help writing your thesis, I can - no - I WILL help you.

[Clement]

Dont know whether you are wrong or right, but i respect and your unhappy and dissatisfied feeling...
i will do whatever i can..okay?
ii Love you!!!